Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Years Eve

I sip on my coffee and wait for the time I can pick my bag and flutter off for the New Years Eve party in the beautiful deserts of Dubai. I hope when it ends, I will get to watch the stars embellished on the night sky and count them just like how I counted the positive things of this year. There were shares of negative aspects too but when I chose to see only the positive ones, the former paled in comparison.
Apart from the many things I got to do this year, I got to learn a couple of them life lessons especially about the amount of trust you can place on anyone or about who to depend on time of crisis and who not. These lessons will only get clearer with time and passing years - what matters all along the journey is if we learn them or not. And if am lucky and wise enough, I might be able to separate the wheat from the chaff like a true Virgo.

Cheerio

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Silent Night...

The first mention of Christmas brings to mind snow covered trees, santa claus and holidays. The second mention of it brings childhood memories of xmas in Dubai. It may not be a picture of an ideal Christmas for everyone however for me, it was. We would have our winter holidays, the weather would be amazing with most probably the rain to accompany us, special xmas programs on tv, making Christmas cards for friends, Christmas celebration at neighbors house with mouthwatering delicacies and a happiness for whatsoever reason that the year is going to end and the new year is on its way. A time to start fresh.
Another mention of Christmas reminds me of times back in India during my stay in the hostel where we used to play a game of ‘ Christmas Friend’ – the mystery friend . It was hilarious and the main aim for the girls were to find out their mystery Christmas friend with who they exchange letters through friends. So much of detective work happens during that time with a lot of wrong guess works. And end of it all, you get a Christmas gift from your Christmas friend and most probably a new friend too.
I would love to experience Christmas in its other style with pine trees smelling, snow falling, Christmas carols on the streets, a warm fire in the fireplace and a beautiful Christmas tree with gifts waiting to be opened . Maybe somewhere down the lane I will.
Till then I wish everyone a Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

The Sun and the Moon



The Sun signs and the different types of people it represents is of interest to most of us.

For a person like me who likes analyzing, I love trying to match people’s characteristics with their sun signs. There have however been instances when I have felt discrepancies and this includes certain traits of mine which I felt did not belong to a Virgo.

Being a Virgo, I tend to be a bit of a worrier .Disorderliness gets me irritated. Let’s not forget the part of the universal critic. I tend to criticize myself and also tend to see the flaws of others.

Then I came to know of the moon signs. Apparently the moon sign is the location of the moon on the zodiac sign at the time of your birth just like how the sun sign was the position of the sun on the zodiac at our birth time.

Most people will have their Moon in a Sign that is different from their Sun. This is why many people with the same Sun Sign can be so different from each other. They may feel that when they read a description of their Sign, that it is not representative of them. It may feel incomplete, or even completely inaccurate. Moon Signs may be a much more accurate description of what a person is like. And the moon sign it seems plays an important part to say what exactly we are from within- our inner personality. It explained a lot of things about me for example which weren’t falling in zync with the Virgo traits.

Having an Arien mother (Fire sign- Cardinal) and a Taurean Dad (Earth Sign – Fixed), it wasn’t surprising when my moon sign turned out to be Leo (Fire sign – Fixed). As I read more about it , I could relate myself with a lot of them characteristics- it baffled me and explained why sometimes I could feel the fire burn within me. I have mentioned two of them below.

‘They can be generous to a fault; in fact, it can become overwhelming to the recipient at times. They can't stand ingratitude, so if you are the one being showered with generosity, express your thanks.’ - ;)

‘Those born under the Moon Sign Leo do not take advice well, though they are happy to give it.’
‘Never ever must be castigated or criticized in public...to do so marks the certain kiss of death for the relationship…’

And yet many more.














As rightly mentioned, being a Virgo with a Leo moon often ends in lot of internal struggle. Virgo being mutable and Leo being fixed.


The worst part being if my inner pride gets hurt, the Leo moon roars but the outburst can be a shower of unimaginable sarcasm- the Virgo way .

I guess all of you should try reading your moon signs – it’s quite interesting ;)

Monday, October 12, 2009

Back to writing..


Iam back to doing what I like – writing.
Was watching a movie the other day which made me even think why am not in a profession that has to do something with writing? It also reminded me something else. The rain.
Over the years the perspective of rain in my mind has gone through many a change.
It used to be joy- just joy in the beginning .Now it represents joy in some cases, gloom in some cases and sometimes it annoys me especially if you are stuck in the Dubai traffic and you just want to get back home after a tiring day at work.

It even reminds me of many things. The greenery back home in India especially when I used to sit and watch as a kid the trees and leafs getting wet, wet and wetter. The thunderstorms which frightened me when I once thought the coconut tree in front of our house was going to come crashing on to our house and kill us ! It was just my imagination.
It reminds me of the time I studied in India in a convent for a year when we used to have the afternoon prayer just after lunch. The kids used to assemble just outside their classrooms on the corridors which were open on one end. The prayer song was sweet otherwise also but when it rained, it mixed with it to give a heavenly feeling as if the angels have really come down to listen to you.
The rain for some reason reminds me of wet days at school in Dubai, with the girls in dark blue sweaters- the cold a welcome change from the hot sweaty days - even the classrooms held a cozy feeling then. My favorite past time was reading Archie comics during boring classes or the happiness in carrying one home borrowed from friends- happiness in simple things. It was such an innocent world then.
I remember being in love. It was such a joy to see the rain then especially while you drive and if you had some really great music on.
The back breaking drive to work during one of those terrible floods in Dubai is another memory. You almost end up cursing the rain and wish it were sunny again then.
The list goes on..

Cheerio
Picutre courtesy - photobucket.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

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I have read somewhere that we must let go of the shore and sail into the middle of the sea for new experiences and a new journey. I guess am at such a point in life right now. I don’t know if it’s a new journey but I have let go of the shore and is in the middle of the sea. I hope I won’t have to stay in the sea for long and very soon would see land – a new place and hopefully a better experience in life.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

A bottle of water.


June 1st! Everyone is trying to avoid the sun as much as they can unless its quite urgent to go out into it and embrace it all the while cursing it.

Look around and the ladies are out with French manicured toe tips, legs and hands stripped down with hot wax , fancy flip- flops , Bermuda – shorts, capris, summer dresses, sunscreens , fancy hats , umbrellas and everything else related to summer.
Now the fashion is to carry a bottle of water wherever you go – a sign of ‘I take good care of my skin and my health’.
A leading mineral water company has taken advantage of this situation to beat competitors by running a competition for its users where you have to just do a simple thing. Collect the letters of its name . The one who manages to collect all the letters win gold coins.
As of now I have collected just two letters. All the bottles seem to carry just these two letters.
Now when I get the bottle, I first look at it sarcastically all the while a voice crying inside of me to open it, what if this time, the letters are different? I take the bottle and peel of its plastic cover beneath which the letters are hidden within a small square covering. And before I open the covering, I pray for it to be something different.
Slowly, slowly I open it all the while two voices inside of me arguing with each other.One telling me that am a fool and the other one telling me that there is no harm in checking , you might not know when luck strikes!
I go forward and open it and then crumble it in disgust and throw it into the garbage.

It’s never going to change! And I promise myself to never check it again!

Yet, I continue to peel the cover, hoping and hoping that maybe I might just come across all of those damned letters!!

Just did one this morning too.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

May

May – the summer is back.

It isn’t yet completely humid in Dubai however it’s just around the corner and you can already feel it. I guess everyone is already making plans to hibernate during the coming July – august months.

Not me.

May – the month of the Taurean. I was with a Taurean friend at the bookstore today – a lady who can make me laugh at even the silliest jokes. Today she even made the guard at the bookstore snicker while she was happily criticizing John Grisham – a well know author. I don’t know how does she manage to do that and when I turned back I saw him chuckling looking at us. He doesn’t have to eaves drop – she was loud enough for him to hear. Infact, during days when am really low, she can really put me in to good spirits with her sarcasm and wittiness.

Some people don’t have to try – they are designed naturally to bring a smile to your face – with their clever remarks and wittiness. Then there are people who make you laugh with their stupidity. Not that they are stupid, just that they tend to act like one.

And certain times we ourselves can tend to be laughing stock for people. It happened to me when I was at the swimming pool one day with two Piscean friends. Now I seem to have a lot of ‘Fishes’ in my life.
Since we haven’t yet reached the stage of ‘expert swimmers’ or ‘good swimmers’, especially my Piscean friend number one, she kind of lost balance while doing her back stroke and called out for help.
Now suddenly I was the friend trying to help the friend in need - I jumped into the water like am some professional swimmer and swam towards her. Unfortunately when I reached her, I did not know what to do next and so in the process of catching her, I almost drowned her and myself. We had a bunch of old ladies around us in the pool and Piscean friend number 2 who was still at the other end of the pool watching the whole scene with a dumb look - to laugh at what happened. Since I laugh more than I swim when am in the swimming pool due to which I drink a lot of water, I too did the same.

Oh well, I guess I wrote a lot for this post.

Cheerio.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Back Again

Work got my hands tied and now am back to update my blog again!
Last month was a roller coaster ride with so many ups and downs, surprises, shocks, miracles, mixed emotions etc. I guess that’s why they say that life is a roller coaster ride aye? Enjoy the ride they say!
Am not very good on a roller coaster or any ride of that sort for that matter. I keep my eyes tightly shut and sometimes keep quite or sometimes scream and I have a feeling that’s exactly what I do in life also. I try to keep away from reality and sometimes take things silently or else rant ,crib! I wonder if I practice myself on the roller coaster – open my eyes and just laugh at the fun, I do the same in life too!!! Hmm….food for thought!

Cheerio

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Day dreams

The world of Isabella Swan as mesmerizing it was had captured and captivated me for some days and even made me go and watch the movie ‘Twilight’. I even read the rest of the books in the series. The result? Even I wanted to have a vampire boyfriend – as drop dead gorgeous as the character in the book and the movie!
Well, I even sat and wondered how it would be to have one! Would he scare off
my big boss? – ‘ Increase her salary else I will suck your blood!!’?
Wow!!that would be amazing!
Not just bosses, anyone for that matter who would irritate me, all I have to do is say to my vampire boyfriend ‘Darling!! So and so is such a pain in the wrong place!! Can you please scare him for me?’ and he in turn like Edward in the story would tell me ‘of course my love!’ I feel like giving out an evil laugh!

I must stop day dreaming – it can be such a disappointment!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

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A number of times in our lives there might be incidents or occasions where we feel helpless and indecisive. There also come days when certain matters that are to be kept at bay and maybe even forgotten about , that comes back to haunt you! Today is one of those days when the negative attracts more negative until I want to curl myself up and cut off from the rest of the world !

At this moment I fervently wish that I can be in that far away place all by myself, seeing the beautiful world outside , its creation and its beauty and just relaxxx…

Listen to the silence of dawn break, feel the warmth of a cool breeze, lie down and watch dreams interwoven amongst the skies , smell the damp earth when it rain and taste utter peace!!


Snap !! And am back to the dust and grime of this city!!Sigh!
Cheerio
Nitya

Saturday, February 28, 2009

A Saturday!

I hate hate hate going to see the doc especially if its in a crowded clinic!! I feel nauseated and suffocated sitting there and seeing people come in looking bored, sick ,coughing and with babies screeching at the top of their voices. In between that you have toddlers running hither – thither or sometimes coming up and staring at you as if you are an alien from the end of another galaxy! I had to visit the clinic twice today- one for my mother with my mother and one for me. I had a nagging ear pain since morning while I was at the clinic with my mom however I was too lazy to go back home which was a walk able distance from the clinic and to pick up my insurance card. The result – unbearable ear pain and a missed get together party.
And then you have a doctor who just keeps yapping - yap , yap ,yap! I almost fell asleep in my chair while I was with my mom and he kept explaining how cholesterol is formed in the body- yawn! The sad part was he kept repeating the same sentences over and over again in a different manner and I wanted to strangle him while my mom kept nodding.
However by evening the pain in my ear grew unbearable and I was dying to see him again!! Again back to crying babies, bored people, coughing and the dirty dusty weather outside but- this time it was a relief to see the doc and thankfully he talked less this time! Now with the medication in my hand, I have already started feeling better. I wonder if that has something to do with the mind – set up!

Meanwhile I flicked the one below from Amitab bachan’s blog – reminded me of my college days!!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I like this...

No One Can Make you Feel Inferior Without Your Consent - Eleanor Roosevelt

Monday, February 23, 2009

no title

I guess am making a slow and steady progress on ‘ IT’ however knowing the collection of lazy bones in my body, nothing can be said unless its completed.

Certain things are coming and standing in front of me asking for a solution and I have no idea what to do about it. I wonder if I was put in a similar situation before to encompass the same now in a right manner for others!
Whatever!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

And the OSCAR goes to....

Yaaay!!! Am so happy!! Atlast TWO Indians have taken an OSCAR home ! And guess who gave away the Oscar to one of them??WILL SMITH!!
I don’t know why I was grinning the whole morning as if I was the lucky one to hold the coveted award in my hand but the reason for my smile was not just because I was happy for A.R Rahman but because I was dreaming.
And no trophies for guessing it out. Me walking up the stage in a beautiful gown and accepting an oscar for ‘ god knows what’ from WILL SMITH.

*faints*

Now that’s the effect of dreams.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

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Sometimes I stop and wonder where is life taking me.. As I look down on the horizon , I see nothing but a light that beckons me to go forward no matter what be..

The future is unknown but there is no option than to row down the river until I reach the destination where peace can even spell without letters.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Cry Baby Khan...

I don’t know if am working too much now a days that even on weekends I feel like working! Strange!
I love the early rays of the morning and in that way am a morning person however towards afternoon, I start hating day time and wish for the night to be here.
Went to watch Billu Barber(shhhhh) yesterday – the emotional quotient from the malayalam version was missing and so I STILL felt suffocated when I saw Shahrukh Khan cry ( I been feeling that ever since Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna). I don’t know if I have mentioned it anywhere in the blog before that I became a fan of King Khan when he cried in DDLG, fell in love with him with KKHH , did not feel anything when he cried in Kal ho na ho( coz he started doing this every now and then!), started laughing when he cried in Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham and then the suffocation started!! Next time he is going to drive me up the wall if he cries, I will tear down the screen! And he does it mostly in Karan Johars movies.

I hope he doesn’t cry in Karan Johars next awaited flick ‘My Name is Khan!!’- OH NO!!!!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Random

I sit every evening to complete 'it' however i fall asleep!!Sleep seems to be so much in love with me now a days that it spends more time with me!! Early to bed and late to rise is makign me cranky,pranky and up size!Yes, am putting on weight!! Its a miracle! Now back to mad-house(work) and god knows whts in store for me today!I go everyday in full gear and come back looking like a car ran over me...sigh!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Guiding light

Sometimes I keep forgetting the lessons I have learnt in life…. I guess that’s just to do with being ‘human’.
But as years pass by and I come to realize each day how things , people and feelings that surround me are just ‘perishable’ ;and that noone other than an imperishable power that watches me is the only one to be with me all throughout life and throughout births( if they exist)- it calms me down .
But like I said not for long! After days am back to being what I was forgetting everything!Well, I guess as long as that understanding resides deep inside of me to save me anytime things go totally wrong, I hope it takes me along -being the steady guiding light that never changes, while I walk the path of life that turns out to be sometimes a flowery path, a dense- dangerous forest or even a ever raging stormy ocean.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Nitya is ' feeling sleepy'

I guess am getting fed up with face book and orkut. I wonder if all my friends in my friends list and also me will still be using it when we are 50 plus. If we will still keep uploading photos, change status messages, comment on photographs, scrap each other, poke each other, take quizzes and play games!
The status message on face book is the most interesting of it all. Our platform to announce to our friends what we are feeling, what we are doing etc – to secretly show off, to feel someone is hearing us or to reach out to someone who you cant directly reach out to! We might have some interesting status messages down the lane like

‘Misplaced my dentures…. I wish I could find them. Sigh!’

‘Found a wisp of hair on my head today..Yaay am not yet completely bald!’

‘Met old sweetheart after 40 years, she has a bend but she is still beautiful for me’

‘Am a grandfather …. ATLAST! ’

‘ Son bought me a new set of reading glasses!Am back !!’

And so on …! It could be good if facebook and orkut could keep everyone in touch till the day we wont be there to update the status messages.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Snow

No updates on the blog for more than a month’s time. The New Year has begun but I have made no particular resolution. I see people around me taking them and breaking them after a couple of days and I tending to be one of them- if I took a resolution-thought it best to do things without making it a new year resolution.

Towards the end of last year, I got to experience the chill of Europe – literally. The heater, blanket, jacket, socks, gloves etc did no good for me. The worst experience being while I visited the Dachau concentration camp in Munich. My toes and fingers freezed up even after being covered with gloves ,socks and boots and for a moment I thought of giving it up and rushing back home!

The end of the year got me emotional for some god – knows – what reason and while I fell asleep in the early morning of January 1st thinking of the year gone by (this year was eventful in its own way for me – emotionally draining ), I held a small complaint in my heart to God that I couldn’t even see it snow- one of the reasons I wanted to visit Europe in winter – and I was leaving back to Dubai soon.
Later that day as I woke up and dragged myself to the toilet, I did not feel anything. Getting out of the toilet I walked into the kitchen. It was really silent in the house as no one else woke up- I thought of fixing myself a coffee and walked towards the machine that was near the kitchen window. I don’t know what made me look up neither did I understand why I did not notice it earlier ......it was snowing outside – silently. It wasn’t a heavy snow or something but then it looked beautiful and something tugged at my heart. I stood there after that looking out of the window for a very long time- my first snow, my first prayer answered for the year...