A Saturday!

I hate hate hate going to see the doc especially if its in a crowded clinic!! I feel nauseated and suffocated sitting there and seeing people come in looking bored, sick ,coughing and with babies screeching at the top of their voices. In between that you have toddlers running hither – thither or sometimes coming up and staring at you as if you are an alien from the end of another galaxy! I had to visit the clinic twice today- one for my mother with my mother and one for me. I had a nagging ear pain since morning while I was at the clinic with my mom however I was too lazy to go back home which was a walk able distance from the clinic and to pick up my insurance card. The result – unbearable ear pain and a missed get together party.
And then you have a doctor who just keeps yapping - yap , yap ,yap! I almost fell asleep in my chair while I was with my mom and he kept explaining how cholesterol is formed in the body- yawn! The sad part was he kept repeating the same sentences over and over again in a different manner and I wanted to strangle him while my mom kept nodding.
However by evening the pain in my ear grew unbearable and I was dying to see him again!! Again back to crying babies, bored people, coughing and the dirty dusty weather outside but- this time it was a relief to see the doc and thankfully he talked less this time! Now with the medication in my hand, I have already started feeling better. I wonder if that has something to do with the mind – set up!

Meanwhile I flicked the one below from Amitab bachan’s blog – reminded me of my college days!!!

I like this...

No One Can Make you Feel Inferior Without Your Consent - Eleanor Roosevelt

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I guess am making a slow and steady progress on ‘ IT’ however knowing the collection of lazy bones in my body, nothing can be said unless its completed.

Certain things are coming and standing in front of me asking for a solution and I have no idea what to do about it. I wonder if I was put in a similar situation before to encompass the same now in a right manner for others!
Whatever!

And the OSCAR goes to....

Yaaay!!! Am so happy!! Atlast TWO Indians have taken an OSCAR home ! And guess who gave away the Oscar to one of them??WILL SMITH!!
I don’t know why I was grinning the whole morning as if I was the lucky one to hold the coveted award in my hand but the reason for my smile was not just because I was happy for A.R Rahman but because I was dreaming.
And no trophies for guessing it out. Me walking up the stage in a beautiful gown and accepting an oscar for ‘ god knows what’ from WILL SMITH.

*faints*

Now that’s the effect of dreams.

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Sometimes I stop and wonder where is life taking me.. As I look down on the horizon , I see nothing but a light that beckons me to go forward no matter what be..

The future is unknown but there is no option than to row down the river until I reach the destination where peace can even spell without letters.

Cry Baby Khan...

I don’t know if am working too much now a days that even on weekends I feel like working! Strange!
I love the early rays of the morning and in that way am a morning person however towards afternoon, I start hating day time and wish for the night to be here.
Went to watch Billu Barber(shhhhh) yesterday – the emotional quotient from the malayalam version was missing and so I STILL felt suffocated when I saw Shahrukh Khan cry ( I been feeling that ever since Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna). I don’t know if I have mentioned it anywhere in the blog before that I became a fan of King Khan when he cried in DDLG, fell in love with him with KKHH , did not feel anything when he cried in Kal ho na ho( coz he started doing this every now and then!), started laughing when he cried in Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham and then the suffocation started!! Next time he is going to drive me up the wall if he cries, I will tear down the screen! And he does it mostly in Karan Johars movies.

I hope he doesn’t cry in Karan Johars next awaited flick ‘My Name is Khan!!’- OH NO!!!!

Random

I sit every evening to complete 'it' however i fall asleep!!Sleep seems to be so much in love with me now a days that it spends more time with me!! Early to bed and late to rise is makign me cranky,pranky and up size!Yes, am putting on weight!! Its a miracle! Now back to mad-house(work) and god knows whts in store for me today!I go everyday in full gear and come back looking like a car ran over me...sigh!

Guiding light

Sometimes I keep forgetting the lessons I have learnt in life…. I guess that’s just to do with being ‘human’.
But as years pass by and I come to realize each day how things , people and feelings that surround me are just ‘perishable’ ;and that noone other than an imperishable power that watches me is the only one to be with me all throughout life and throughout births( if they exist)- it calms me down .
But like I said not for long! After days am back to being what I was forgetting everything!Well, I guess as long as that understanding resides deep inside of me to save me anytime things go totally wrong, I hope it takes me along -being the steady guiding light that never changes, while I walk the path of life that turns out to be sometimes a flowery path, a dense- dangerous forest or even a ever raging stormy ocean.

Nitya is ' feeling sleepy'

I guess am getting fed up with face book and orkut. I wonder if all my friends in my friends list and also me will still be using it when we are 50 plus. If we will still keep uploading photos, change status messages, comment on photographs, scrap each other, poke each other, take quizzes and play games!
The status message on face book is the most interesting of it all. Our platform to announce to our friends what we are feeling, what we are doing etc – to secretly show off, to feel someone is hearing us or to reach out to someone who you cant directly reach out to! We might have some interesting status messages down the lane like

‘Misplaced my dentures…. I wish I could find them. Sigh!’

‘Found a wisp of hair on my head today..Yaay am not yet completely bald!’

‘Met old sweetheart after 40 years, she has a bend but she is still beautiful for me’

‘Am a grandfather …. ATLAST! ’

‘ Son bought me a new set of reading glasses!Am back !!’

And so on …! It could be good if facebook and orkut could keep everyone in touch till the day we wont be there to update the status messages.